Cant stop looking back at the days when being so happy with you. When I felt no anger nor sadness coming along any time soon. Everyday with you was full of laughter & joy! :D Felt nothing would ever go wrong. Yet ; I kept my hopes up too high..

I never had that feeling when I was so hurt & my heart being so broken. Turns out.. The one that made me happy most, was the one who hurt it the coldest! Tears come down every second & all I wanted to do was stay in bed. Though, I was finally back on my feet when you said you still loved me. As you say you did, all I wondered was if you really did mean it. Cause damn right I knew I did. Seeing you talk to other girls, people telling me move on, is something I couldn’t stand. But then I knew sooner or later you’d go back out there to find someone new. So I decided I shall too.

I talked to this guy & he was as sweet as you were. But I just had to let him down when thoughts of you came to mind again. I talked to another & he told me hes waited for 2 years now. But then again the same happened with the other. I stopped trying to talk to someone else. Cause no matter how much I tried talking to someone new, I knew I wont be able to handle or go through it knowing your ALWAYS on my mind. Its hard knowing you just left me with memories…

One day, I find out you finally got a new girl. So I thought to myself, WOW! It really is time to move on no matter how hard its going to be. So there I am out there again. Me & this guy talked for a month. And finally me & him went out. As me & him were together, I realized I was stupid for saying yes when he asked me out. Being with him made me not feel a spark at all. Knowing I still wanted to be with you.. Its him whom I then ended it with.

A week later, I see you again face to face. All I wanted to do was weep knowing seeing you made me think of the good times we had. But when I saw you we were just back to the laughter. Later that day I see you with the girl your with. & Like a friend said.. “Its hard seeing an ex with their new bf/gf”. I didn’t wanna try looking at you at all. Yet I had no choice. That night, I gave you a hug goodbye. Heading home made me feel down. I couldnt stand what I saw & most of all, I couldnt stand how I felt.

Happily, me & you started talking again more often. The way things were(; . Friends telling me your gonna ask me to be yours again. You saying you love me again. & Didnt believe it till you ended it with your girl. After your break up, there we were back to acting as a couple. Back to seeing you every weekend again <3. Then again, Hopes went up too high again.

Found out you’ve started talking to someone new. & All I wanted to do was go back to the depression..