My last words..

I can say I still love you, but I’ll be honest that I really am over you. You know how good it feels to finally move on? Yet you should know since you already have..

From the start.. You were the one to make me happy. You were the one who I thought would never let me down. Though I was wrong. You were the FIRST to ever give up & leave me the way you did. I dont hate you, I hate the way we ended. We were so happy one day & next thing you know you just wanted to walk out. My moms birthday, it was a special day for me. I couldnt enjoy that day knowing I was arguing with my fam cause they would talk bad about you. I sleep from all that anger. I wake up with fam still over. Me being happy cause I was able to text you finally & next thing you know, there was nothing to be happy about when you replied my text. You see me running upstairs to my brothers room just crying my eyes out! How can you end what we got so quickly then the next day just start talking to another girl? How could you tell me you didnt want to be with me because you were tired of my family talking about you when it was an easy way to work out? How could you just tell me to be strong and not to cry when you hurt me deeply? Days go by & I’m stuck in my room crying & not being able to eat. You think I was able to handle seeing you talk to other girls? Not even one bit. After we were over, yes we still acted as a couple. But you acted like a little punk as well. I talk to you so nicely, but you responded like a big ass brat. Its like I didnt even know you anymore. As you got with a girl, you left her to be with me. A homie tells me you said you broke up with me for a stupid reason & that if you never broke up with me, we would’ve lasted till now. You know how much tears fell down my face when he told me that? Why couldnt we continue what we got? Though as we were close to going back to the old times, how did I not know you were talking to someone while you were trying to be with me? Ill give you props for hiding that from me. How stupid was I to let go of the others who tried to be with me. No matter how much I told you how much I still felt for you, it meant NOTHING at all to you. Your with someone else & I’ll admit.. She makes you happy, but she changed you. Your not the guy I met at the club that I would text each day. Your a whole different person. Your not caring much about life, your not caring much about school, your not even around your old friends anymore. What happened to the old you? To where your friends didnt have to tell me that your barely around. To where you would go to school each day. To where you focused on your life. You were so caring, you told me everything. Now its as if you can tell me nothing. I shouldnt be hearing all these bad news about you from others. I should be hearing it from YOU. But then you know what, its whatever makes you happy. If this girl makes you happy, then I’m happy for you. I’m done being depressed. I’m done thinking of you every damn day. I can honestly say, our memories are always kept & what we had is always remembered, but feelings for you are finally moved away. Dont worry about me telling you how much I miss what we had. Its not like your gonna care anyway right? I’ll admit, I ask myself what it is that she got that I dont.. But its something that shouldnt matter. I still believe in you. I believe you will go far in life. You know there would never be a day when I would let you down, when I would give up on you. You know for a fact I’m always by your side when times get rough. Till then.. No worries of me trying to come back.

I’ll happily say, I’m glad that I’m over you. I’m glad this depression actually has an end.

04252k9;2:37am is what I keep remained with me always..